Feeling crappy

I feel like crap today. Not ill just tearful, angry, argumentative and like I wish the world would swallow me up. I feel empty, restless but too tired to do anything. Didn’t sleep well last night following an argument and woke early still mulling it over in my mind.I’m exhausted now and it’s making me…

10,000 steps a day

So the house sale falling through for the third time has left me feeling deflated, stressed, miserable and trapped. We accepted the first offer over a year ago and have had most of our possessions boxed up for that time. In fact, OH moved in with me around the time we accepted the first offer…

The ‘good’ never seems to last too long…

I thought things were going too well!!! After last week’s successes we were brought crashing back down to earth yesterday after being told our buyers are pulling out. This is the third time people have pulled out of buying our house meaning we lose the house we want, foot expensive lawyers bills for nothing and…

All is good…

I’ve had a good few couple of days, enjoying not being in work so there has been plenty of lie ins and for the first time in ages I don’t feel like I’m utterly exhausted and dragging round my body.   I’ve been busy crafting – trying to complete a ‘new baby’ cross stitch before…

Liebster Award

A big thanks to normalistoomainstream (https://normalistoomainstream.wordpress.com) who nominated me for this award.  It means a lot to me and makes me realise I’m not just typing away into the ether! Basically the liebster Award is a way of networking and supporting blogs with less than 200 followers. Rules here: Thank the person who nominated you,…

Becoming

My own quote but inspired by the Carl Rogers book I’m reading ‘On becoming a person’. He says the curious paradox is when you allow yourself to be, then you start to change. This really hit home to me – what if I’ve been doing this all wrong? I keeping going on about changing or…

Love

Watercolour paints on canvas. These were the tube variety of watercolours and came out stronger than my palate ones. I liked the effect.

Feeling good and looking forward.

Today has been a good day. I went to have a look round a centre that offers the counselling course I’ve been so desperate to do. It’s been so hard to find a course that I can fit around work as most of them are in the day. This place operates in a really different…

Angry Little Stress Ball

I am just an angry little ball of stress! Ready to explode at any moment. Every little thing winds me up and sets me off on a rant. I’m resentful, stressed out and angry. But I’m hoping acknowledging this is the first step.I know I’m pissed off at work -too many pointless changes that are…

It’s hard work being me…

I’m feeling deflated and out of sorts. I’m finding the way I naturally think and feel exhausting and frustrating. I know it’s effecting my relationship but I don’t know how to change. I always think on the negative  and I always over analyse. We keep having a reoccurring argument that comes up when I suggest…